I have not update in so goddamn long. So much has happened over the summer. Three important things happened to me:
1) Offset is now RIP. I think it was about time and it was definitely for the best. I put in too much work for Offset. I should have quit that band a year ago. I play guitar for a new band.
2)I went on tour to the UK with Team Spider. Holy shit was that amazing. I lost my camera, I was introduced to alcoholic cider with blackberry currant, the UK breakfast which includes eggs, bacon, mushrooms, baked beans, sausage, toasted bread, and hash browns. Played with many great bands and go to see so many beautiful places like Ireland, Scotland, Amsterdam, and London.
3) I have a girlfriend that has changed my life. Shanyce is her name. Where the hell did she come from? "Out the blue she came to me". She makes me so happy and I just want to be there for her in everyday possible and protect her. She cares for me and that's what I have be wanting for a while. To be cared for. She's a good friend, I can talk to her about my problems and she will listen to me. I am in the process of writing her such an awesome song.
three days old anyway so you're tired and the inspiration's gone away, where are you? in harm's way seems like everything is broken and it feels like i might break on this ordinary day why do we need to change? when we were perfect yesterday?
June 1st will be a good day in local music history for Kingsbridge
I think this past Saturday will be last 2nd to last show.
Arianne is taking me out to Sushi tomorrow! Hells yes!
Osker is a really good band.
To trust or not to trust. That is the question.
It's my birthday and I'll do what I want to Fuck you it's my birthday. A special holiday only for me, so do what I say, it's my party, I'll make you cry if I want to...or leave. Fuck you, it's not your birthday, so do what I say.
For 24 hours your wishing me well 364 days I'm in hell, Oh well. Happy Birthday to me.
I know I can believe things I hear easily but when my own mind is telling me something is kinda fishy and all these different stories add up for really good excuses at certain times...it makes me wonder. WONDER REALLY HARD.
Suns coming up and I cant decide To spill my emotions or keep them inside Go for a drive, go to the store I'm looking for something that cant be bought there I always wear a smile Because anything but a smile would make me have to explain And they wouldn't understand anyway I conceal my feelings so I wont have to explain What I cant explain anyway. I can't decided. I can't decided anything. Every time I open my mouth I always wish I had kept it shut I gotta spill my guts - but I don't dare I take a look around, I know that no one else cares.
I'm incapable of the simple things that make her laugh and smile The way I see it she owes me time cuz I spent so much on her.
Goddammit I've had it. Somebody done messed up everything. I'm not one for forgetting I'm definitely not forgetting her for what she did not do. Stubbornness has gone and blocked up my whole view.
Today was raining so I got intoxicated with Christian while Alex and Justin were doing the usual. Justine and Alex asked me to move in with them around Fall since they all plan on going to school at Hunter in the Fall as do I. They wanted to do a two room apt for a good price on the upper east side and there was going to be a small possibility Heather would move in with us and we'd make it a 3 room apt which would be a lot easier but right now that doesn't look so good for certain reasons.
I haven't listened to Sloppy Meateaters in so long.
I promise never to forget what I promised you. and if quit on me, you wont be complete. When I see you I forget, just how lame it is to breath and everything to me, What are you doing to me? Why are you wasting away with me when you couldn't possibly be happy with me.
Somwtimes I think I'm crazy and over exxaggerate on things. Parania has always been my middle name, but why?
Tonight was preetty fun. I had to pee very badly on the subway. Laughed at people, the ones that I couldn't make up their facess.
This entry is funny cause its hard tell what I am talking about. What ghe fuck?
So many typos that I donmt feel likew going bak top correect them.
Sheena is a punk. Aka S****. For some reason I think this is funny but ewhen I read this tomorrow ill be like 'what the fuck'
I says they were cool biatchhhh.
I have a new water botle that says I have a new music expirence that awaits me.
My middle brother might getting sent to boarding school. He has behavioral problerms at school and at home. He says he doesn't care if he gets sent away, I know that's not true, he just hasn't learned the true meaning to appreciation.
I love the advantage of having a sidekick. Its like a handheld computer....with dial up internet speed. Christian emailed me a link to an ad on Craigs List for a show this Friday and they need three bands for the open slots and I'm pretty sure Offset was prob the first band to email them. Christian IMed me the link on AIM and I went to the link and clicked the email on the weblink and emailed them our info in less than 5 min flat. Waala! All while at work.
Todays weather so good. I wish Eli never broke my skateboard. That bastard. Ill prob get a new skateboard by April..wait no...screw that ill get a new BMX. Heck yeah!1!! I really miss riding my bike in the summer.
She needs to make up her mind. Its ridiculous how someone can't see the difference between a good decision and a bad one. Everyone learns from their mistakes.
Christians sister just called me from 34th street asking me if I knew where the Journeys shoe store was on 34th street so I looked it up on my phone and found the address for her. THE POWER OF THE SIDEKICK!
I love love love love herrrrr.
I hope we get that gig for Friday. It sucks being in the studio much more than playing shows.
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So I go yesterday to check out the apt and all. Seems I got my numbers wrong. Its actually 100 a week. 450 a month. That's a lot and I'm not 100% positive if I am moving or not. I have abot 3 days to decide. Masha will be partly moving in with so we'l be splitting the rent.
Yesterday while I went to the apt I hung out there for a bit and meet this rap group called Stuck on Stoopid. I've heard their stuff before and they are locals. Their music is funny and one of their singers JC has credibility. He was signed for two years on Tommy Boy records and for him being played on Z100 and KTU was a normal thing. Sucks the label went out of business. Anyways first thing JC asked me when I introduced myself was "How long have you been playing guitar for?"
I've been thinking of moving out. Not because I don't want to live with my family but because my friend has a apt across the street from him. 3 bedroom. I grew up with this guy. He's 25. I remember we would always go play baseball and do everything together. I was a lot closer to his younger brother who was a year younger than me. I remember one time we made out own baseball and actually bought custom made jerseys. That was cool. He said he'd give me a room for 100 dollars a month.
But then again there are things I need like, internet, i'd need a laptop (which my dad is going to buy me anyway), phone, tv i dont really care for, luandry would be fine as well as food. I'll just come home to eat. RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET.
I started writing song lyrics again. It's been over 2 years since I've written anything. I forgot how it use to feel to write something good. It makes me think a lot. A lot about the way I say and do things. I like it though. Should I maybe post a song or two up anytime?
I've also been considering quiting something that means a lot to me. It's changed my life and the way I live and the way I think about everything. It's really hard. I don't know what to do. Without it I feel like I wouldn't know what I would be doing. I feel it's the only thing that has kept me sane and keeps me entertained but it just sucks when you feel that you are over doing everything and that you are the one leading everything on to everything and everyone else is effortless compared to what you are doing. I don't have much alternatives. I think life would suck without it. I THINK! I've met so many people through it. I made a lot of friends through it. I've seen so many things not many people get to see when I know I could see more. I spent a lot of money on it but money can't put on price on anything of course. Def. I don't want to lose my friends and everything I've worked for but when you feel you are being pulled down and feel that you could do better with a better arrangement of dedicated people then you just have to take sacrifices and start all over again.
I LOVE YOU CAUSE YOU TELL ME THINGS I WANT TO KNOW. AND IT'S TRUE THAT IT REALLY ONLY GOES TO SHOW THAT I ..I I I SHOULD NEVER EVER EVER BE BLUE.